| Lets drink to get drunk and forget for the night. |
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Now that im well over 21and never drank to forget. im going to tonight because it seems like life is hell. I have a liter of Jagermiester but i done used all my monster and red bull. So the ultimate question is what to mix it with next faygo red pop or mtn dew. Two good thing about drinking is i can write music on my guitar and forget my pain for the night.
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| Not inactive |
[10 Jan 2008|04:29pm] |
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I'm really not inactive, I just don't want to be deleted there is to much in here for me to loose.
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| Sick. |
[24 Sep 2006|03:23am] |
I'm running a really high fever and im really sick and depressed as fuck so heres something i wrote.
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You see me and I smile.
You think I'm happy.
But whenever you see me, I been stareing at you.
I smile not because I'm happy.
Because the thought of me sliting my wrist and makeing you cry is joyus.
I know you don't love me.
But eighter way if I died you would cry.
To know that I caused you pain will only make me happy.
You hurt me so much.
But you do not know it.
I seen you alot more then you seen me.
I just want to know why you say you love me.
When we both know its fake.
You don't want me.
So let me go.
You have someone.
Let me die.
I'm not needed.
You say you are.
You say it's mine.
I'm not sure if you're lieing about it.
But I know it's not mine.
I have a problem you never knew about.
No one does but me.
Maybe that's why I know in my heart you lie.
Why can't I get it to my head.
Doesn't matter.
Soon I'll be dead.
And you will be crieing.
I'll be watching you tho.
Laughing as you repent.
If you could take it back you would, so you say.
You wish me alive for one last chance.
That in your heart you know you would mess up.
But you think you can do anything to me.
That I don't hurt, that I don't bleed.
But we are all human.
I just loved you more then you know.
More then you will ever know.
You can't be happy with me.
So just let me be.
Leave me to die for my mistakes.
So many.
All chaseing me, waiting to bury me.
I will not let them win tho.
It will be me who will do it for them.
All because of you.
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| Last entry. |
[09 Aug 2006|02:51am] |
I'm sorry I cant do this any more.
I'm sorry for anything.
No need for you to be.
It's my heart, It's me that breaks it.
Not you.
But your the only one that can fix it.
But you cant... You want... You cant.
And me, I cant let you.
I Love you
Leave me to rest in peace.
I would have been anything for you.
Been anyone, Done any thing.
It's not your loose.
You can love others... You do love others.
I cant.. I love you.
I will always love you.
I tryed not to, I tryed to hate you.
I tryed to be mad at you.
But insted i love you even more.
I want to spend the rest of enterinty with you. You dont know how bad it hurts me.
Not just you, Being with out you...
It's better this way. Good-bye.
I will forever love you.
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| You... |
[07 Aug 2006|08:07am] |
I dont know if you still read this or not.
I love you, still.
I want you back, still.
You hurt me, still.
What does it take to show you.
That I would do anything for you.
________FOR YOU_______________
HINDER LYRICS
"Get Stoned"
Just hear me out
If it's not perfect I'll perfect it till my heart explodes
I highly doubt
I can make it through another of your episodes
Lashing out
One of the petty moves you pull before you lose control
You wear me out
But it's all right now
Lets go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out (We could end up making love instead of misery)
But it's all right now
Without a doubt
The break up is worth the make up sex you're givin me
Lets hash it out
Cause your bitchin and your yellin don't mean anything
Don't count me out
I can handle all the baggage that you're carrying
You wear me out
But it's all right now
Let's go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out (We could end up makin love instead of misery)
But it's alright now
Lets go home and get stoned
We could end up makin love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
Go home and get stoned
We could end up making love instead of misery
Go home and get stoned
Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me
You wear me out
(We could end up makin love instead of misery)
But it's all right now
(Cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me)
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
Lets go home and get stoned
________I__LOVE__YOU_________
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| Hot or Not? |
[05 Aug 2006|08:53pm] |
Uhhh I hate sites like it but
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| Friends only! |
[02 Dec 2005|04:05pm] |
If you are seeing this then your arent on my friends list. Want to read my journal?
Then add me and leave a comment.
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